Miss Waiting

Arcade Fire / The Suburbs
track 11 Wasted Hours (A Life That We Can Live)


十二月三十一日的倒數計時或吹熄蛋糕上的蠟燭，這些時刻對我來說都不特別感傷，追著我跑的、逼迫我長大的是那看似燃燒殆盡的夏末太陽。每當秋意偷偷滲入空氣中、褪去綠葉的色澤，就覺得我又老了些、我又離年輕遠了點。

從前的願望其實很單純，只想努力長大成為更好的人，可我們所謂「更好的人」只是一再被複製的模子，而這個容不下質疑的社會也就趕著我們搭上一節節車廂，駛往那唯一的方向。

我們埋頭猛衝，直到撞開前方的大門才豁然開朗，門後有個嶄新的世界，有很多機會和很多選擇，無比自由快樂，甚至天真地想要創造更多可能，這才發現被禁錮已久的雙臂失去了飛翔的力量，疲於揮動臂膀，不如鬆手順風而下。直到最後落在地上才恍然大悟，我們仍是那些被困住的孩子啊。

怎麼了？我們不是照著期望成為「更好的人」嗎？為什麼卻像被挖掉一塊肉一樣感到空虛？啊，我們在流失的時光裡失去了自己最獨特的顏色啊，理應越磨越透徹，反倒被塵土層層蓋上。

奮力一搏也好、揮霍最後一絲瘋狂也好，這次跳上自己的車，開往記憶中熟悉的道路。奢望搖下車窗伸出雙手就能虜獲殘存的青春，失去理智地催著油門想趕上前頭的夕陽。但太陽終舊在西邊的地平面下收起光芒，把我們遠遠拋在後頭，徒留微亮的天空映在若有所思的臉龐，低頭看看自己還剩下什麼能倚賴，原來我們始終都只擁有我們自已啊。

花太多精力去感傷逝去的日子、去渴求我們沒有完成的事，卻沒發現窗外吹來的涼風悄悄拂去了陳年的塵埃，也許長大是被迫接受現實，但再怎麼無奈也不會放棄的堅持、隨著時間更顯堅毅的固執，那是我們始終如一、最初的樣子。



All those wasted hours
we used to know, spent the summer 
staring out the window, the wind it
takes you where it wants to go.

First they built the road,
then they built the town.
That's why we're still driving
around and around.
And all we see are kids
in buses longing to be free.

Wasted hours before we knew
where to go and what to do.
Wasted hours that you make new
and turn into a life
that we can live,

Some cities make you lose your head,
endless suburbs stretched out
thin and dead.
What was that line you said?
Something about how, our time
it owns us now.

Wishing you were anywhere but here,
you watch the life you're living 
disappear, and now I see,
we're still kids in buses
longing to be free.

Wasted hours before we knew
where to go and what to do.
Wasted hours that you make new
and turn into a life 
that we can live.

A life that we can live.
Don't hold me down
don't hold me down
don't hold me down
don't hold me.

 
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